As I walked in the downtown today, I remembered all the up and downs of my life.
The sky was blue and the sun was shining. The cool spring breeze was so pleasant.
People were out hanging out and having good time. As I sat in my lonliness on the bench and watched lovers passing by holding their hands, I asked god about my destiny, about love and about life.
Now it is night and dark, the cresent of moon is shining just outside my window, and oh god I never can get tired of the beauty of the moon! So pure so lonely so like me!
The sound of fountain outside, the cool night breeze, and the quiet of darkness, makes my heart to chill and my mind to wonder about life again.
So many things have happened in my life. So much pain, so much happiness. But still I am unable to find the love. Is it really finding the love or being found by love, or is there soemthing else?
The peace that I am looking for, the happiness that can elevate my soul, the calm to appear in my daily life and relaxes my mind of all the anxiety, all that seems far away, yet I am hopeful.
God has showed me miracles on and on in the most difficult moments of my life. When the tears of sadness and dispair streamed down my face, when I was only left with my loneliness, and when there was no one to feel my pain, god has been there for me and he is there for many more who have hope and faith in him.
So in the darkness of night, and just behind my computer, I am still sitting and wondering about life. My questions are not yet answered. But I have hope and I have trust in god and I know love is something that perfects you as you understand it more, it's not an abstract concept, it's a daily life understanding. No matter how hard and difficult the life is, it is still beautiful, so thank god for giving me the eyes to see the world beautiful.
-Reza
